Bad dreams

My nightmare was made up of you telling me you've been texting / talking with joe and Andi- it was clear to me I could not communicate with you anymore I was angry and hurt but felt as if all along I knew this day would be here 

I walked alone again

Somber in my reproach

I woke up knowing 

Cold 

Alone

I was cut off from all things I've loved 

Bitter at the circumstances of my life

Unwilling to waver the affections I did before unwilling to walk this road again

My life unmanageable 

My 

Mood draining 

My 

Resolve faded

Don't talk to me I am like the wind 

No I won't talk back to you in blank stares and snarky words I won't open a crack to you my faded lover in my own misery I will cocoon 

Protected from the disappointment that looms