Segments of night

I wanted to hear from you today but all was quite 
Not in my head 
Half written texts 
Miss guided emotions 
That blur my eyes red from too much sub
No one has touched me like you
But your distant slow and aloof
I want more but calm and crazy don't go hand in hand 
Your cautious with me you know I'm not the one but I'm the one here 
Your ways are fragile And my body young 
Touching long into the night 
You sleep apart from me 
Nestled in waves you dream of love 
Lost on days forgotten 
Just like me a soloist on the sea of life
We talk nonsense to avoid the things that really matter like our freedoms put diseases And the way we want to be with each other 
My wounds are scarred over and the hardness doesn't tear at the slightest rejection 
Before you close your eyes you already pretend I am gone