Gods knots

Twist my stomach 
Your words are Nots
Waiting to get lost in you
I untie every sentence 
With catastrophes 
Exiles and fugitive come close to me but we are all truly alone the courage to carry the god hole knees bound to the floor 
Not just going through the motions
Waiting for emotions to explore 
The spark between us before my illusions and delusions set in 
Thrusted I will fall heavy into your arms 
The weight of the day 
The life 
Upon tiny shoulders no one 
Would conclude to hold but God